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I myself have struggled with addiction. This isn’t something that I have openly shared with a lot of people, because I felt ashamed and embarrassed about it. I thought it made me weak. Through my younger teen years, before my spiritual days I hung out with a lot of people that felt just as lost, angry, and sad as I did and there was a lot of coping going on, lots of drinking, smoking, etc. I broke away from these people and those activities when I had a few spiritual realizations and awakenings. A lot of those people continued on a coping path and got into more hard core drugs and forms of coping. Something a lot of people don’t realize is that addictions, and negative habits are a form of coping and escape. There are many forms of addiction or bad habits, smoking, over eating, under eating, video games, caffeine, sweets, crunchy foods, medications, skin picking, obsessive cleaning, etc. When giving up an addiction or a bad habit a lot of people relapse or go back to the habit because they didn’t heal what is was covering up. Addictions and bad habits, are formed through what it is we are coping. Like people that crave crunchy foods often struggle with anger, or self loathing. People that crave sweet foods, often are trying to comfort and reward themselves. Smoking derives from a form of self hatred because breathing is you life force, and smoking hiders your ability to take in life and function properly. Each addiction and bad habit is formed through our specific wounds and responses to our hardships. When I was younger I was so angry at the world. I didn’t know why the world was being so cruel to me. I felt victimized by my upbringing and parental figured or lack their of. I felt victimized by other kids at school, teaches, experiences etc. I experienced a pretty abusive upbringing. In experiences like this most people are taught to tell someone, a teacher, a school counselor, a trusted friend, or adult. I did just that. It was really hard for me to do. When I did that nothing came out of it, I was often told that I was over reacting, or being dramatic, or that I had to just hang tight until I was 18. I didn’t understand. I thought If I did that someone would help me, someone would save me. It was so over whelming for me. I couldn’t deal with the stuff at home, and at school. So soon after I fell into a copping crowd. I didn’t see it as that at the time. I just thought i was being tough and awesome. Anytime anyone antagonized me I attacked. Because in my mind If I could do something about it, I would. Often I was over do it because I had so much pent up anger and sadness. I struggled with a lot of anxiety, depression, and anger and was given medication for it. I wasn’t able to openly express it at school or at home with out repercussions. I gave up on life, because I felt like life gave up on me. I was divinely guided to a spiritual path, and It completely changed my life, I could see things clearly for what they were, and my healing began. I decided to stop taking my anxiety and ADD meds, because I realized I didn’t need them I just need to heal. Healing isn’t always easy but it’s always worth it and necessary. Our addictions, cravings, and bad habits are a smoke screen for things that we haven’t dealt with, because we weren’t ready to, or we couldn’t. A lot of the time when people stop an addiction what the addiction was hiding comes to the surface. So detoxing something physically is often a very emotional and hard process. That’s when people either heal, substitute addictions, or relapse. Our outside world, our habits, and addictions are just mirroring things inside us. I now know that I’m not weak and I never was. I was just doing the best I could from my level of consciousness and that’s all you ever have to do. An extremely important part of the healing process is being willing to feel vulnerable so you can get strong again. If you are trying to give up an addiction or a bad habit, you are not a lone and we want to help you, to ensure your success. We know how hard it can be, and you don’t have to do it a lone. With our experiences, gifts, and knowledge we are able to and have helped a lot of people with things like this through our sessions. Contact us here: http://www.lightworkertwins.com/